Restore Joy!

Oh the emotions of Christmas!  Yesterday, as I was unpacking in preparation of decking my "halls with boughs of holly," I came across a picture of my son's first Christmas. As I looked at that little boy, full of life and bursting with anticipation, I said out loud to my self, "If only he were that little again!" Oh the fun we had just being together! My heart fell hard for that little boy and my heart has never fully recovered. Looking at him, frozen in time, I longed for a "redo," another chance to teach, to guide, and to simply be with him- mother and child. Oh, the  things I would do differently!  But, they grow up, leave home, and build their own lives with their own families.  It is easy for me to get caught up in regret of the things that I failed to do or left unsaid. Did I tell you that I get emotional at Christmas? 

Waking up this morning I was thirsty and desperate for an encouraging word from the Lord.  Forever faithful is my God.  He whispered in my ear the word restore.  I went quickly to my concordance and Hebrew Lexicon (I know I can't help myself - I am a word nerd!) and looked up restore.

"Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit to sustain me." (Psalm 51:12)  

The word restore means to turn back, turn around, return, come back. According to my Hebrew Lexicon (Key Word Study Bible) it "essentially denotes movement back to the point of departure."  

At what point did I depart from the joy of decking my halls?  The point of departure was in my thoughts.

 "We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ." (2 Corinthians 10:5)

 The Living Water was beginning to fill my mind and heart with truth, the truth that will set me free from regret, shame, and the lie that says, "You are a failure."  I am choosing to believe that Jesus will restore my joy.

As I reflect on God's grace I am reminded of the man my son is today. He is a faithful husband, a kind and caring father, a diligent teacher of God's Word, and above all else loves Jesus.  I guess I didn't do such a bad job after all!  In fact, I know it is Christ in me, my only hope of glory, who works powerfully in me, in my children, and in whomever He calls me to minister to.    

We proclaim him, admonishing and teaching everyone with all wisdom, so that we may present everyone perfect in Christ.  To this end I labor, struggling with all his energy which so powerfully works in me."  (Colossians 1:28-29) 

If you are struggling with your emotions this Christmas season, take His Word to heart, drink it in, chew on it, believe it, live it, and be restored by it!

"And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast."( 1 Peter 5:10)